Scurry

Life has a way of  hitting you smack dab in the face...  - amazing coincidences, horrible tradgedies, times of complete and utter light, and moments stripped of all joy what so ever. I think I am in the midst of a full body ambush. From every direction I'm finding a flowing of blessings but simultaneously a flooding of  bad feelings and incidences. Am I happy right now? Well yes I am. Am I sad right now? I could say that too.

Maybe I am just super humanly flawed ( clip out the "maybe") but I just cannot seem to find my emotional presence. What am I feeling right now? I'm beginning to realize I'm going through another one of those times where I am feeling it all at once. I hope I look back at these words and say "hey I got through that. I dodged the bullets and contained all my adversaries " I hope I charge through this battle and make it out a better  soldier than when I began. I am beginning to realize who Taylor is becoming.. I'm beginning to figure out if I like her or not.

Here are some images from my past few weeks. So many smiles on camera but what is that girl feeling on the other side of the glass?

I love these people.

This could be one of my favorite desserts.

My good friend gave me these cool lens filter slides. This is a picture taken with an orange slide in front of the lens.

I respect my grandmother to no end.

My darling cousin Marie. We get a long so well.

My beautiful cousin Grace. Shes a ball of energy and drama!

Lovely family

Jelly fishing anyone?

Mom pulled out her cotton candy maker and made some delish. treats.

My big sis made me a hello kitty decorated uncrustable for my birthday! How sweet and clever!

One of the best boys on the planet.

A picture of the moon rising over the ocean.

A gorgeous Makena at her debutante party.

There is nothing wrong with this picture.

WHICH SCHOOL AHHHHH.

Right now I am choosing between Art schools to go to NEXT semester!! AHH I am so nervous I will choose the wrong one :( I want to pursue photography so it makes the most sense to go to the school that has the bests photo programs.. trying to figure that out.


VCU's photo website ---http://www.arts.vcu.edu/photofilm/

Student work from VCU displayed on website

SCADS photo website -- http://www.scad.edu/photography/careers.cfm#programButtons

 

 

 

 

 

Student work displayed from SCAD

 

 

I have been really impressed with what I have seen from SCAD ( esp in their photo department) but I am very impressed by the awards and accolades VCUdesign has been awarded. This is a tough decision.. I hope I will choose a school that will work for me.

Good morning from this sleepy head. I'm not sure how my eyes have opened so early but here I am.

My mother has alot of talent when it comes to cookin' ( & many other things) Grilled Pineapple Chicken and Vegetables

My friend took me too a cute little Thai/Asian restaurant and ordered this tea drink for me. It's funny, when tasting food from other culture's sometimes you can hardly describe what you are tasting. This drink was like a mix of southern sweet tea and some kind of smoky aged flavor. So distinct and delicious!!

Ollie the Pup(Great)

Some good friends and their daughters made me a cake for my birthday. It is a "pretty pony" cake according to the two curly headed three-year-olds who decorated it with sugar crystals and sprinkles. The prettiest cake I ever did see.

Currently my compass is pointing toward these blue tinted mountains.  Each fourth of July we trek up here to celebrate with our crazy family and friends. Happy fourth.

Cousins

Apparently today is one of those days where you wake up too early for your own good. My sleeping mind has told my eyes to open but I'm still dreaming. I know many of my family members are thinking of the of the breakfast that will be awaiting our greedy fingers. As soon as Gramma "Ibby" turns on the cook top, people begin to make their way up the stairs to see what will be on the table for the Fourth of July spread this year.  

When my great grandparents began to start their family they decided that they wanted a retreat from their busy world of the early nineteen hundreds. They chose a small home called the "Sally Anne" at good ole Lake Junaluska in the mountains of North Carolina. Every since then, generations of my family have come here to celebrate not only the fourth of July but each other. Every generation except mine has actually spent their entire summers up here as children/teens with the same kids each summer. My grandmother speaks highly of the adventures she shared here when she was growing up. She found her husband in this very place. My father and his buddies rant and rave about their laughter filled summer days and the many lake Junaluska girls they met each summer. It is funny thinking about the history and the community that has been created at this lake. So many memories lie on wooden porches and rickety swings. The food is served the same, the fun is just as innocent and the parades and fireworks light up skies and faces each direction you glance. The faces have gotten older but my families spirits have stayed so alive. I am truly insipired by this Methodist retreat we call Lake Junaluska. Look it up. It's beautiful.

I have to go get dressed right now because I have to help some of my family finish up the float we are riding in the parade. ( we are shooting water at people and throwing candy and tossing water balloons at the people we know in the crowd.. Im excited haha) How crazy do we sound? Afterward we will all head back up to the sally anne for the annual breakfast in our dining room. I am ready for some biscuits and doughnut holes. 

So now that I have made my family to sound like southern country bumpkins, I will bid you farewell. Happy fourth and Good bye. Ps. This post is all over the place. Excuse my mess.

• Taylor

This song keeps playing in my mind lately. 

I've been playing it over and over.. Just something about his voice.

Neil Young - Old Man

Heres How life has been.

 

The first photograph is a picture of an old family album.

The Second photograph is a picture of me at an old home that has been in my family for generations. The town that house is plopped on is the town where my father spent his summers with our various other family members, the place we visit every year for the fourth of July, and is the place where my grandmother and grandfather met. -very special.

The third- self explanatory-- but it's an image of an addiction many of my friends share that brings them their own form of comfort.

Forth a picture of a darling twin I happen to have the privledge of knowing. She is the child of one of my favorite families in this world. Atrue gift in my life.

A picture of some very girly cupcakes I cooked up and decorated for my big sister Organic cupcake mux with fun blasts of color inside and home made icing ( simply concocted from a little bit of milk, vanilla, confection sugar and melted butter. YUM)

And the last  photograph is an outfit I was sort of proud of but maybe it didn't look as good as I thought hmm :) oh well

This  is a little window into my mind at the moment-- enjoy?

•  Taylor

& Welcome to the Science of Catastophy-

Hello.. I've broken my blog virginity.. :] Congrats on stumbling upon this once in a life time event.. This feels as if I am speaking to empty space yet I am happy to say that I like this new journey of blogging. One day- maybe- my words will be heard. One day -maybe- my voice will be important.  One day maybe my thoughts will be significant to more than just a few of you here on this green and blue dotted sphere we all inevitably call home-- unless your an alien of course and if I'm reaching you? Well then I've done more than I expected!

So my rambling will pause and I'll explain a few things.. 

The name of this blog is "In Between Focus" for multiple reasons. I thought this name suited the path of life I have chosen to view myself inside. At each moment I am living seconds that will become a huge story that is my life. Only at the end will my true focus come into view. The whole picture will never be finished until I leave this place. Right now I am also in a spot of huge transition --I am in between adulthood. -- I am in between places. -- I am in between emotions and thoughts and feelings. I am a girl who is caught in between tripping thoughts and a spinning world. This blog is about me.. I take too much time thinking and feeling for the people around me. It is time to be selfish. So here I am -- like it or not.. I'm here typing, This will hopefully be filled with photographs, music that interests me, beautiful artists, work of my own, outfits, inspiration and whatever else that floats through my scull in a given day..

So here you are. I don't know how you got here. I don't know why the hell you are still reading but hey-- Thank you. I hope that maybe someday, I can read about you as well-- that I can see your journey through this crooked world -- that i can see how you manage to survive this place. I sure am enjoying it here.

• Taylor